Wednesday, 28 August 2024

Irrationally rational

 “Men should not cry”.

Isn’t this one of the many stereotypical statements(or should I call it ‘belief’?) used generously and ubiquitously since time immemorial? Though ‘times have changed’(again a cliched expression!), I don’t think the perception has undergone any major change. The spontaneous reaction to a man crying in public or for that matter even at home will be this – Look at him, crying like a woman- as if crying is the prerogative of a particular gender. In a way, this too is misogyny of a different form.

Why am I saying all this suddenly?

It is because I cried today just sometime ago.

What was the reason?

Let me explain. I was pretty down since morning, feeling listless and feeling as if my energy was sapped by an unknown force. Not knowing what to do, I randomly clicked on a video. It was a speech by the Maestro himself on RamaNa Maharishi. Even as I was watching and listening, I felt tears swelling up in my eyes and like the city of Chennai in the month of October, it started overflowing( Chennai – My eyes; Tears- Floods; My face- Roads) without any reason or even season. Should there always be a reason for everything?

And without any reason, my thoughts instantly went to a particular song whose first line says – I get tears in my eyes without any reason.

Like many compositions of his-filmy or non-filmy- ‘KaaraNam indri kaNNeer varum’ (Raajavin RamaNamaalai) is full of emotions. Based on the Hindustani raag Madhukauns, the composition makes one travel on the roads of ThiruvaNNamalai with the destination being very clear.

The violin piece in the higher-octave makes me enter the Ashram and head straight to the hall.

The tabla in the Pallavi is very special as it plays the chatushram beats languorously. So is the subtle sound of the jaalra which plays the first beat of every cycle.

The absence of percussion in the first interlude which has the guitar and the flute with the former plucking the strings of our heart and the latter piercing our soul, is special as well.

Well, coming to think of it, there is no percussion in the second interlude as well, even as the long flute and the guitar keep asking questions.

Open my eyes’ – This is what the song says.

And I cry…

Is there a reason? I don’t know and I don’t want to know..



2 comments:

Raji Akka said...

Thanks RK for this lovely share. Yes, sometimes we do cry, without a reason - maybe it's a sign that we are alive. And soulful music as this really reaches deep inside. It's a great blessing to appreciate music.

Raj said...

Thank you.